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Too Bored...black Monday lagi. I dont know wat to do. Ammended budjecting MICCOS for BKP, fax to accountant, wrote memo to UKSK regarding the stand by gen-set and reading journals..Arghhh!!! so dull and gloomy. Anything more can I do??? Kemarin, entertain Pak Karyudi sebelum dia berangkat pulang ke Medan. Listened to his excitement experiences at Genting, his bussiness negotiation of technology uptake by the own state and private plantation in his country, his eagerness of trip throughout Malaysia for 3 days here, his hope for Malaysian-Indonesian collaboration etc...happy listened to his enjoyment.

29 April-5 May 2007 Took leaved for 3 days and we got 7 days vacation to Medan, Indonesia. When we departed at Polonial Airport at 8.15 am, there were 2 officers and 2 pak supir from IRRI were waiting for us with 2 Toyota MPV (locals named it "Kijang"). We were brought to have breakfast with locals dish so called pecal..it different from Malaysian pecal (almost sayur with kuah kacang only)..but Indonesian pecal were added with mee suaw and some kind of nasi impit that were wrap with banana leaves...also hot and spicy kuah kacang...perghhh...sedap juga. After that we went to Pajak (pasar) Ikan. There are no fish there but a lot of batiks, lace, telekong, and jilbab ala2 Bu Arini...heheh..already spent 60% of our budject for only half a day here. Finished shopping we were paid for lunch with minang dishes at Bt. Tinggi Restaurant..I'm confused with so many lauk especially from sapi...ada otak sapi lemak kuning with local fruits juice like markisa, alpukat (avocado), terung ...

Yes! kerja deligates kerja ni mmg best...Assigned two other officers each unit and then gave them guides and works to do..heheh..itulah teamworks namanya. Alhamdulillah, takder top people kacau aku lagi and I'm free to do my job without hesitation. Well, I just wanna complete my task and InsyaAllah MICCOS 2007 will be my 2nd project which is will be the most successful event.

Starting from April, there are so many works and activity to do. A huge event organised by KPPK also coming soon and I'm responsible to co-ordinate the exhibition session...oho...when it happened my name was pop-up! but when promotion or SKT marked...my name was no where? hiden no where...really unfair. During back off time, my name spokes around as un performed scientist event the others just boss air-conditioner. So now, I'm doing that assignment just because I enjoy doing it..just for self satisfaction..likes designing for the logo's, T-shirt and benna..I done it just because I like to do it..go to hell with the other people's appraisal. When my project was passed to the other I was sad, but now when they forced me to do long journey project I feel nothing...if they want to blame me in the future, I fired it back...words said "look at ourself before judge others"..if the capacity and milestone was the same why need to blame young scientist? why not holding ...

Lihatlah langit di atas sana Tersenyum melihat tingkah kita selalu ada peristiwa Yang membawa pertengkaran * Maksudku hanya ingin yang baik Untuk kita berdua dalam bercinta Baiknya aku buruknya aku Terimalah aku apa adanya ## Pastikan kau dengan aku Jangan ada cinta lain Tak pernah aku terlintas Niatku untuk berpaling * Maafkanlah aku sayang Bila dulu kau bahagia Sejauh langit di atas Kan ku kejar bahagiamu * Biar langit dan bumi meruntuh Biar jasad kita tertimbun di sana Tetap bersama tak ingin lepas Cinta itu ku jadi begini ##

Fasa sedih dan perit beransur hilang walau sedikit bersisa. Pengertian mengenal siapa kawan dan siapa lawan, siapa teman sejati siapa sekadar menganggap subject for fun..hanya timbul dikala senang tapi menjauh dikala kedukaan. Bukan amarah, bukan huluran simpati juga bukan bantingan tulang serta tenaga, tapi sedikit semangat dan sokongan cuma...mungkin salah faham telah terjadi. Usaha sehabis daya, bukan untuk membukti tapi pancaran ikhlas di hati. Alhamdulillah, di saat fikiran sudah menjadi buntu, jiwa kacau dan bilamana air mata tdk mampu menitis lagi, Allah mengurniakan pendengar buat berceritera dan mendapatkan sedikit kekuatan buat motivasi diri. Sudi meladeni omelan kecewa dan putus semangat saban hari hingga bilamana tanpa sedar sudah mampu bersemangat dan tersenyum kembali. 4 bulan tidak selama 4 tahun..Gracias..gracias......walau bukan apa tapi ikhlas cuma, bukan sesiapa tapi pada silaturrahim yg tiada nama..pun tetap hormat dan bersyukur. Akhirnya mampu berdiri semula atas n...

Trip to Cameron Highland lagi, to survey land for transgenic Hevea trees...I might be crazy for looking the land of 1875 acres in Lojing that plan for agrotuorisme..including Istana Hinggap Sultan Kelantan and location for MSN. MSN cancell project in TARC, London then we LGM pula wants to be a neighbour? Pi mai-pi mai tang tu jugak..Anyway, the soil is suitable but the higher land might not be favour by our head...management we dont know..it will end up with us to do everythings for that land development..Wauw! A huge job and responsibility, do I have to manage it?? Anyhow it just 5 hours from KL and 5 km from Gua Musang...near to my negeri..heheh..senang balik kg.