Realme

My 1st appearance in the school newsletter when I just enrolled as RHD student in 2009..weee..not every student got the opportunity to be highlighted, cos it has been selected to be "glamour" ...said my beloved Daryl Joyce :p And this is my 2nd appearance when I fulfill all the requirement and been awarded a PhD degree...Alhamdulillah...   But, only UPSM doesn't want to recognize it until I pass them the copy of "said" ( katanya ) certificate, that will only post via mail within a month..membawa maksud I will not entitle for the final allowance yet :(      As Dr. Yeang said "life is always unfair...and we have to live in those unfair situation and be strong" lebih kurang lah.....

Sekarang dah submit...now what?? Aiseh! Boring la fuleks dah takder apa nak dibuat :/..gi bank transfer duit baki ke Malaya? esok pagi lah, terminate postpaid? lusalah...balik pack barang? ermm...pagi esok jerk lar... Now sesambil copy semua files dr office dekstop ke external HD, demam pulak tu...tidur dulu best gak ni :) BTW, proses submit thesis kat sini sangat lain dngn waktu saya buat master kat UKM 10 tahun yang lalu. Entah2 local uni sekarang pun semua dah pakai sistem berkomputer ni. Sini, thesis kita tu kena convert ke pdf file, upload online kat http://espace.library.uq.edu.au/rhdsubmission bersama dengan submission form yang wajib di-endorsed oleh main advisor, PGC dan kita author serta pdf abstract sahaja. Pastu generated email reply akan kita terima mengatakan submission complete dan akan di-check format tepati standard UQ oleh graduate school editor untuk approval mengatakan thesis kita tu sedia dihantar ke pemeriksa. Sebelum tu sekitar 3 bulan sebelum submission ...

Alhamdulillah hampir selesai...sepatutnya submit thesis hari ni dan balik esok, tapi sebab terlambat confirm teket dah terbatal online uhuks. Takper leh postpone submit thesis hiks!...Tapi sebenarnya memang belum ready nak balik lagi....sebab nak shopping dan lepak2 dulu hihi..so mintak org pentadbiran tempah tiket hari Khamis, tapi takder kapal yang terbang plak hari khamis..uhuks lagi..Jumaat plak fully book daa...so terpaksa I balik Sabtu..yeeehooo! boleh lepak kat Brisbane dan shopping2 dan jalan2 dulu. Jadinya muktamat upload thesis kat espace esok la jawabnya. Daryl pun nak jumpa lagi hari Khamis ni..huhu..sayang jugak dia kat I kannn...hemmm proses nak finalise thesis manyak ngek jugak. Dah convert ke PDF pastu check ada cacat lagi, convert lagi cacat lagi nge nge nge...walhasil hari ni sejak kul 3.45pm sampai 6.30pm satni dah berpuluh kali convert delete, baiki convert delete...akhirnya semua dah cantik hopefully dan takmo tengok lagi dah..dah jelak. So tinggal esok proses ...

Yeahaa...Sebenarnya Khamis lepas juga kami ada seminar dan sy menyampaikan seminar terakhir saya di sini. Waktu tengahari kami ada party...farewell party yang di-organised oleh advisor saya Daryl Joyce khusus untuk diri ku hihi...terasa diri ku begitu berharga muahahahaa. Ehem! Nilah boyfriend saya Andrew...Andrew yang kacak dan gagah perkasa itu. Sedang memotong pizza yang dimasaknya sendiri. Yes! Dia sangat hensem, baik, bijak dan lemah lembut (sopan! bukan lembut auww tu). Ya! Saya sangat suka lelaki yang lelaki tetapi punya ciri2 mithali yang bukan saja romantik tapi pandai masak, rajin tolong isteri basuh baju, pandai urus anak sama naik ngan isteri etc2..... aih sukati lah cita2 katanya, amiiiiiinnn....hahaha... X-student Daryl, dulu dia lecturer kat Arizona, pastu balik OZ tanah tumpah darahnya..eh saya pernah cerita pasal Andrew sedikit masa dulu. Neway...ni cuma sebahagian dari ahli group kami..ramai yang baru2, yang lain2 kebanyakkanya sudah graduated.

Hi...sudah seminggu lebih tak update, rindu saya tak ehehe.. Anyway, ini adalah hari2 terakhir saya di UQ Gatton sbg Research High Degree student. Whatever it is you have to praise me coz I manage to finish my PhD within 3 1/2 years hihi. Not many could do this since most commonly it took 4 years to complete PhD overseas..sometimes people goes to 5 years. I challenge my self that the extra time given to me to get better band for IELTS was paid off when I got 7 overall. I prove to many people in organisation who don't believed I can do my PhD abroad. Well, even my english isn't well competence. Then, at the beginning my advisor said am quiet layback and pretty slow compare to others coz am leaving school long enough (7 years) before I start my PhD, whereas others continue straight away after their master degree. Where I actually work at home for my lit. review and just submitted when I finished the whole bunch. Again am prove him wrong. During our final mee...

Ih ah..ih ah...saya sdg berhempas pulas untuk finalise chapters thesis dan compile dan convert to pdf dan antar ke advisors rini..tapi table stats saya masih pincang sana sini..dan saya pening. F-test probability dia significant tapi LSD dia tak significant...dan Allan hanya free kul 4 karang...tapi dia sempat berbalas email dan explain cemana nak kira LSD manual kat email tapi saya still tak paham Oooooo...blur sungguh! Otak saya sedang berselirat..sejak 2 menjak ni, semua urusan hidup macam tidur, makan, drive termasuk solat opss ya solat semua express tak sempat nak menghayati..makan apa yg sempat capai saja dan tadi nyaris2 nak eksiden...fuh sib baik sempat break kalo tak entah la apa jadi coz kereta tu sebenarya dah jual..$900 jer huhu..padahal aimed $1K. Silap sendiri patut letak $1.2K prepair u org nego. Haish! Tak pandai berurus niaga :(. So miggu depan dia dah pindah tangan. Ermm...okay lah jugak dr menjadi besi buruk tak dapat apa2 macam kereta kawan2 yg lain. Baiklah say...

Hai..kuncu2 ku sekalian...sihat hari ni? mesti semua dah mood raya nih, yer la tinggal 2 hari lagi kan? Betapa sebentarnya rasa masa berlalu, serasa baru semalam Ramadhan bermula rupanya menjelang 3 hari lagi dah pergi meninggalkan kita kembali...semoga diberi kesempatan untuk bertemu lagi di tahun hadapan :) Neway, terlupa pula nak cerita outcome 3MT kan? Hehahha...malas nak dikenang 3MT sebenarnya sebab saya sgt frust pada hari kejadian. Sampaikan video yang direkod kawan pun saya tak tgok sampai la ni. Insiden tu sangat buat saya frust tertonggeng2...Bukan salah saya, tapi salah teknikal. Saya peserta ke-2, timing dan arrangement tdk diuruskan dgn lancar. Selepas peserta pertama selesai bagi talk, tetiba time saya judges mintak short brief ttg siapa advisors dan berapa lama enroll. Sesudah brief serba sedikit, saya tengok chairman dan tengok timing dah gerak di screen laptop..so saya terus sambung dgn talk saya dah hampir separuh jalan. Tetiba chairman kata, belum start! Cish! ...

Di sini saya kongsikan petikan yang belum diedit....hehe, now I am at the end of my so called "dreams" (tak termasuk dreams yang lain...yang hanya mampu pergi tidur untuk mencapainya ..mesti korang tgh pandang my profile kat sebelah kanan :p) Acknowledgements I would like to express my greatest appreciation to Prof. Daryl Joyce for his enthusiasm and aspiration as my principal advisor for the first 2 years and as co-advisor in the final year of my PhD enrolment. He is my professional development guru. I am thankful to Dr. Madan Gupta and Dr. Dough George for being in my advisory team and read my draft thesis. I extend my great acknowledgment to Dr. Donald Irving to his passion, inspiring aptitude and patient to proofread and critically reviewed this thesis.  I am deeply appreciated Mr. Allan Lisle and Ms. Hashima (MRB statistician) for helping me discover the greatness of statistical tools in interpreting the scientific data. A huge appreciation to the Malaysi...

Ok seriously semalam saya frust tertonggeng2...sebabnya hajat nak beli kereta Mazda 3 neo sedan kat sini dah tak boleh jadi kenyataan. Kereta tu kena berpolisi insurance (REGO a.k.a roadtax) Oz selama minimum 9 bulan baru boleh ship balik Malaysia..padan muka ku, last minit baru nak berhajat :'( Kenapa nak beli sini? Sebab seriously harga dia 1/2 lebih murah dr kat Malaysia..mana2 kereta pun..campur kos shipping pun masih jauh lebih murah. Ada AP student pula..sangat terkilan tak guna. Padahal sejak taun lepas dah usha2 Mazda 3 tu..Skang tgh berura2 kena beli kereta, so semingu lepas dah siap survey Honda City, Honda Jazz, dan Mazda 3..sekali kawan cakap "Maya tak layak..." memula dia kata sebab saya tadak duit..sepetang. Then  baru dpt tau condition kat atas tu. Terus tadak mood sepanjang petang bawak ke malam. Kalau saya nak teruskan juga hajat berkereta Mazda 3 neo kat Malaysia harga dia RM100K+++, kalo buat loan interest 4 selama 5 tahun dgn d/payment seminimun RM...

Okeng...assalamualaikum... Setiap tahun UQ and semua universiti kat Australia adakan pertandingan yang dinamakan 3MT yaktu 3 minit thesis. Untuk masuk pertandingan ni kita kena at least dah confirm yang biasanya selepas setahun enrolment. Di sebabkan tahun2 lepas saya tak pernah masuk, sebab rasa macam tak ready lagi walaupun orang lain masuk every year..hehe, biasalah saya selalu gini..buat sesuatu apabila telah sangat confident. Dalam pertandingan tu kita kena present PhD kita selama 3 minit sahaja dgn bantuan 1 slide sahaja tanpa animation etc. Slide dan penerangan kita kena mudah dipahami waimo oleh layman sekali pun..sebab pengadil nya terdiri dr antaranya academician dan bukan academician. Kalo scientific sangat mana technical people nak paham kan? Ni maknanya kita kena terer menyampaikan maklumat dalam bentuk yang boleh dihadam oleh segenap lapisan audiences. Nak tau lebih lanjut gi SINI   Dia memula akn dipertamdingan peringkat school then peringkat f...

Alhamdulillah sudah kembali lagi ke desktop hari ini. Tapi belum dapat gear lagi. Sampai malam sabtu dijemput Ursula dan suaminya di BNE airport kendian bermalam kat umah mereka 2 malam sebelum ambik intercampus bus seawal jam 6.20am tadi. Kemaren sempat temankan Ursula shopping dan sempat sambar barang selai dua hihi. Malam pulak masak dinner tuk dorang. Malaysian dishes dari bahan2 yang kami beli di Inala lepas balik shopping di DFO. Masak beef black paper + kerabu mangga + kari beef dan whitting steam. Konon nak kasi pedas sket masukkan chili dlm semua masakan. Hasilnya saya yang terberak2 tapi dorang okay jer.. Iskh! Terkilan juga ni tak dapat jumpa bonda tercinta, tapi tak mengapalah tak lama lagi akan balik selamanya. Conference tempohari telah present oral paper dengan jayanya alhamdulillah. Seramai ~500 peserta, separuh drnya dr oversea dr ~ 70 negara. Ada 100++ oral paper dan ~200 poster. Bila tengok balik video yang dirakam kawan rasa tak puashati sesungguh. Dan ada profe...

Woohoo...now m keudara di kenny rogers roaster sunway the mall. International Postharvest Symposium dah selesai siang tadi..now m stranded kat legend hotel. Nak cancel malam ni nyer booking dah tak buleh coz dah bayar. Caish! Kalo ada seseorang ambik ronda2 or teman makan2 kan seronok..Daryl pulak keluar ngan Dr. Hafsah malam ni. line tenet putus2 tak seronok takleh nak hapdek bebanyak...neway esok check out, balik rumah...

Eiiy..beruntungnya kawan2 ku kat LGM yang nak gi sambung belajar oversea skang....LGM dah support untuk buat english course kat uni diapply memasing..hmmm, anyway Alhamdulillah tumpang senang. Zaman ai dulu berabis RM3k ++ kat Malaysia. Dah amik kat sini org perli2 dan mengungkit pule...hmmm. Examiner pulak jahat, bila nampak muka kita ulang dia kata "oh you"..tup2 kuar result sama jer band ngan yg lepas waimo dah buat jauh habis baik..uh! Dewan exam pulak besar luas hingga hampir 100 org satu2 dewan..pastu bising kasut penjaga exam pulak keletup-keletap2 time org tgh exam, mutu audio tahap D..Dah la mahal, tiap tahun naik price.. Emm jauh beza waktu amik kat sini, sb examiner mat salleh tader la dia expect kita speaking prang2 macam native speaker, pastu sgt helpful. Bilik exam cuma muat 10 org setiap bilik dan mutu audio tip-top kelas A+. Boleh book exam lebih dr 1 kali tapi boleh claim balik kalo exam 1st dah lepas..maklum la sini pun ramai gak..dr segenap uni di negeri ...

Assalamualaikum chenta! Rini telah mencapai sesuatu..apa tu? Tadi sekitar kul 10am nak mai opis kete tetiba takleh start...humm bateri kong lagi lah ni, ritu dah charge pastu lampu belakang masih nyala2 so gi check kat RACQ bateri 100% good..gi check ultratune bateri 100% good juga dan dorang suruh gi auto electrical..gangguan electric connection katanya, tetiba pomen ganti regulator habis sekitar $80..pastu masih nyala2 jua..lepas kira2 3 minggu takleh start, sib baik kat umah kan...kalo kat mana2 haru gua nak cari sapa? RACQ dah tak sambung pasai nak balik dah, kalo panggil dorang harus terbang ratusan dolar. So, pinjamlah kete hosmet gi beli bateri baru la senang citer...sib baik kedai bukak rini...biarlah berabis sikit asal tak menyusahkan kendian hari. Mula2 call2 kawan tak berangkat2, call kat phone bini dia pun tak berangkat konon nak pinjam spanar...jiran lelaki pun haram nak datang jenguk. Dah gi kedai tak tau pulak nak beli bateri mana? Balik lagi konon nak bukak dan baw...

Assalamualaikum... Weeee! Anda yang rindukan saya?? Ermmm, kalau menulis blog atau update status fb atau twitter musti kena tampilkan imej ceria..walaupun banyak kadang "bergossip" juga sengsorang kat twitter :p Neway, tersangatlah bz la ni...tak cukup kaki tangan kepala dan otak untuk dikerah menyelesaikan semua tasks semasa. Slide conference dah cantik practise 2 kali, tup2 disuruh tukar topik/cerita..hmmm, paper semestinya sudah bertukar cerita juga. As usual am not happy to put the other 2 names and he said people already expected, but its up to you..grrrr... Belum termasuk para chapters yang juga bertukar sana sini. Well, slowly and smartly I will manage and settle all these things. InsyaAllah.. Sambil tak sabar nak jejak bumi Malaysia tak lama lagi :)..I already missed everybody..my nephews and nieces, my family...hurmm, ada kah yang merindui saya? Takder.... Wokeh! Saya mahu sambung perjuangan....wassalam..

Well agak lama tak update blog kan? Sebenarnya tengah tensi nih, Chapter 5 dah datang balik hasil komen Daryl. Yang paling memeningkan dulu time kita discuss result dia suh A, skang bila dah diterjemahkan dalam thesis dia mintak B pulak! Aghhhhh...nak kena re-analyse data tu yang bengang. SAS software new version belum pandai guna..time2 ni la dia nak upgrade version pown. Bila nak guna server tak recognise la memacam haish! Dulu dia kata graph kalo tak significant combine treatment jadi 1 line, tak kira la banyak mana trtmt kita ada..skang dia cakap what are you talking about?? This only have 1 line, you should present your details data so that the reader can understand. Hmmmm... Bila kita argue dia akan cakap "its your thesis..you can listen to ur advisor but doesn't need to follow them"..humangai..time lain pulak bila kita tak ikut/dgr cakap dia akan kata "I'm more experienced than you, can you please stop talking to much and just accept/listen to me?...

I feel so tired but can't stop working...I feel no one is trying to understand me and just leave me alone struggling with my life...all I do, I do it alone :(..I feel angry when others is trying to organise my work while am at the end route of my journey. Instead of arranging their issues well they mess my issues, while blame me and put burden on my shoulder. I feel so stress, last night I cant sleep...just fall asleep around 2.30 am and today my eyes swollen likes ball, red and sore. This business isn't as simple as writing blogs..I feel so lonely and astray on my own path. It affect me physically and I feel like crying..am so tired....no body around me to talk to, I have no shoulder next to me to lie on, no laps beside me to rest my head on :( ..I feel like run away from reality, cut off contacts with everybody..I wanna go to somewhere to have a quality rest. Doesn't want others to disturb or interrupt me..lets me settle my business alone...indeed, am u...

Just got back my chap 5 and I feel down...still lotsa things have to learn...uhuks! Its too hard to be scientist :,( I need a shoulder and ears....huaaaaggghh!!!!!!!!

Assalamualaikum cinta! Hooyeah!...baru  siap Chapter 2, nak baca sekali round lagi sebelum submit :)..so tinggal 2 chapter lagi yaktu General Introduction & General Discussion..simple jerk 2 chaps tu..sekitar 3-5 pages jer setiap satu..Alhamdulillah..So bolehlah balik berconference dan bercuti melepas lelah buat sementara. Bercakap ttg conference, tadi pagi receive email suruh pilih destinasi untuk technical tour. Ada 6 lokasi kesemuanya; (1) MAS Cargo+Agriculture Heritage Park+Putrajaya Agricultural Conservatory Park+Universiti Putra Malaysia (2) Malaysia Agriculture Research and Development Institute (MARDI)+Phytosanitary Quarantine Centre, Department of Agriculture+Agriculture Heritage Park+Putrajaya (3) Agro Park, Sg Udang, Malacca+Malacca City sightseeing (4) Vegetable farm & Sugar cane farm+Kuala Lumpur Craft Complex (5) Berjaya Hills+Heliconia garden+Royal Selangor Pewter Visitor Centre+Kuala Lumpur Craft Complex Hurmm......

It is disgusting when the so called advisor but not an advisor in the real situation. Its more disgust when the so called advisor who hold the account for our RHD allocation controlling our use of money even we not going to finish it or when its nearly the time for account closing or even we need it for overseas travel since we not gonna use it for any other particular research because we are finishing. But it huge disgust when the so called advisor used our allocation to buy new PC or stationary for his own use while he got his own teaching allocation, the so called advisor give away his currently used PC for the new student after emptying everything in it, who precisely not gonna use any penny because she is in the 1st year, just arrive, have no PC and will spend her whole 1st year only for literature review writing, that of course not gonna use even single cent! Gosh! I have no respect for such kind of education personel, my friends also have no respect towards that so ca...