Monday, January 26, 2015

My King hasn't to be....

Thanks Allah, for finally show me a way
To the path that I’m searching all the time
To finally open my heart to anyone kind and honest
Even it doesn’t comes true…I learn to learn
That the manner I have makes me more beautiful,
Wiser and bountiful…

Allah bring him to me, in not bringing him to me
I’d rather ignore the curse, even I was dreaming
We are not meeting until the end..
You haven’t seen me, I haven’t seen you..face to face
Rather, the impact and feeling you left.. draw me certain

O Allah, you send him to change my perception
To accept someone for whomever they are
With all the uncertainties, weaknesses and strengths
Knowing that, I may weaker than him..may not into his vision
Knowing that, we share the same condition…
Could be out of his radar

You surrender your wills and hopes
I respect it to the extent that you may not know
Finally, I have to move on…
With the entire spaces that abundantly unfilled
With all my wishes....
For you to heal, for you to stay strong…
Do not surrender your life, I do concern..
My ever dreamed King hasn’t to be…

#H.A.K (2 November 2014-26 January 2015) 

Wednesday, January 07, 2015

Avoiding the Uncertainty

A bit tired today..the reason why I always try hard not to cry or jaded whenever I feel down or being upset. To avoid tiredness and all the negativity from disintegrate my daily mood and life. Coz the negativity will only beget the chain of other bad things. It will absorb all my energy.

No matter how unlucky and how sad I am. I always pretend to be normal. Try to discard all the negative thoughts, prejudice, misunderstanding and all the bad feelings..but, only because I’ve been gullible again and again, people makes me await without knowing the reason why, without telling me the truth, makes me feel hopeless, by giving me silent treatment but no action no explanations, I become so tense and emotional..

The only option I can do is to stay away from those kind of irresponsible person, who don’t even care about others feeling. I can’t take their words anymore..all the unfilled promises, I can’t invest my trust on them, I can’t even talk to them. I will discard everything about them..and install my own shield against them.

Why it so hard for people to tell the truth? Always make an old school excuses. This kind of person that I always end my connection with… because they have no right to ruin my aspiration to find Sakinah. They don’t deserve my companionship/friendship.

But yes! People can’t meet our expectations. They can’t fit our principle. Only us who can make a difference. Show them that we deserve better and they have no place in it.. Announce our strong aptitude towards our own life. Show them that we are not affected by their cruel attitude/intention and be happy with all we have..then people will envy and have no supremacy to disrupt or mess up our life.